Self Sabotage.
Today I admitted to my bestfriend that I've been in love with him for a very long time. Today I also told him I wouldn't be able to see him for a while. Maybe not ever...
You guys don't understand. He's very married. Very married with 2 kids. Ugh, what else was I supposed to do?
I've known him for three years... I've hid this for three years. Terribly, I suppose... since he told me he knew it the whole time. I can't keep living like he's going to magically wake up one day decide that I'm his soul mate. It totally doesn't work like that. So I'm a complete wreck. And it doesn't help that he just tells me I'm his best friend and he doesn't want to lose me to something this dumb...
F.M.L.
I still haven't decided if this was the right thing to do or not.
Decision Pending.
-Melissa
3 comments:
I completely understand girl. I've been through this before. You never really ever know what the right decision is or was. There will always be that part of you that wonders, what if? :/ You know I'm here for you. <3
Patricia xoxo
Wow girl... This is hard hard place to be at. I never had to experience this in my life so I really don't know what to say. I think the best thing to do is just focus on yourself and work on getting yourself healthy mentally, physically, and spiritually. You will pull through this. I know you can. Be strong.
bah. i told my best friend of 4 years i was in love with him right before i started losing weight. i still to this day would do anything for him.. he is my soul mate i honestly believe that, but i dont think its the kind of soul mate i want it to be. I believe in life you have more than 1 soul mate. there are soul mates for every different reason you need a soul mate in life.
Keep your head up beautiful, you will find that the world will move on but for now, maybe it is best not to see him. love is crazy makes you do crazy things, but you have to know that I AM YOUR SOUL MATE! <3
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